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cant stop thinking

A whole day thinking and analysing.  Looking for answers.  I don't know how should I do this. Been thinking about it, alot. I am not perfect but I tried my best. May Allah forgive me.  Personal attacking. Anonymously. I can sense who and who but dont want to make assumptions. Accept it with all my heart. Be the bigger person. Be the bigger person. The kinder person. The classy ones. The respectful. With grace. Its ok how the other side is, but importantly is me. How I perceive things. How I dont hold grudge. How I forgive. How I learn. How am I grateful.  For a relationship to work, it has to have trust. And it needs two ways work. But again u cant control the other party, u can control U! So do what you can instead on focusing on them. Care for others, be kind to others, be understanding to others, but dont expect anything in return. Love everyone. Hate the attitude but dont hate a person. À person can change. Just need to give them chance.  Heart is sinking, hurting. May need tim
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dear readers,

Just sharing  I have been thinking. Alot lately. I used to write, alot but entahla i stop writing or even typing. I used to write my thing in a diary and I realize its quite dangerous when anyone might read it. So i now i am back to writing trying to express how I feel. In a manner when I am anonymous but with conscience there might be a reader. And I am ready.  Writing to express is good therapy. I think alot. And tonight I think alot about myself. Giving the encouragement to myself to stay calm, stay rational and understanding.  Being resilient is what I need right now.  Am I that resilient? You know its true, people dont remember your million kindness but focus on 1 weakness you have. I may be a boss but I am not perfect. But did I try? I did. Very hard. I cried. I always feel unworthy and almost giving up. But. I can't.  Because what I do is not for me. But other people around me. It hurts. Very much. But what more i can do? And I need to do is to take every criticism positivel
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